Woke up this morning and felt terrible. Drank some coffee in an attempt to get in a good workout. It didn't work. Just sped up my heart rate. Came home and just sat, staring at the wall. I don't know what I'm supposed to do. Nothing is working. I feel flat all the time, I can't sleep at night. The pills, therapy and all the other **** doesn't change anything. I don't want to do it anymore. I'm so tired of feeling this way. I don't want to do it all over again tomorrow. I don't know what I'm supposed to do.