He has been diagnosed with bipolar 2 and then went to a new dr to un-diagnose it. His newest diagnosis is Major Reccurent Depression. See I'm not sure what it is, nor do I really care for the "terms", just want the cycles to stop. Sadly he has proven only he has control over that. If he feels better and doesn't like the diagnosis or the med side effects he changes it. I've really tried to be supportive, but when the person I talk to at lunch is not the one that walks in the door at night then the episodes of withdrawn vs. depression come at least once if not twice a year....... it just makes it a very unstable, uncomfortable place to be. I have my ativities, I keep going no matter what and can take the little quickly resolved issues, it's just the legnth is growing and the discussions are never ending.

I know those suffereing also loose years. I feel bad for those who have to live with it as well. I admire those suffering who acknowledge and treat. I think it's much harder to admit than to deny.

He came home from the pdoc today with another antidepressant added.....none taken..... but one added, and even made the comment, "I guess I have to stop playing Doctor but I don't know why he wouldn't just change it". I see him still not trusting this new dr either. Soon, I fear he will stop these meds too.