[quote=Mandrec;2992671]Hello! Yes, this is what happened: Citalopram triggered ultra-rapid cycling, and I'm not on it now. I still have ultra-rapid, it hasn't gone away, but zyprexa + lamictal took away the highest highs and lowest lows. It didn't make me less depressed, I think, just more stable depressed. Now I'm off both these pills and back to "normal", high functioning (I would say, anyway) though incapacitating roller coaster bipolar 2. I like it because it feels like me, even though it's hell. Zyprexa didn't feel like me. Maybe this is so important to me because I'm recovering from BPD and starting to figure out what identity means. About the hypomania, I said the important stuff in the post above I think. But yes, pdoc and T seem to think this is so serious that I need up to 10 mg zyprexa and 200 mg lamictal. 2,5 mg probably won't do much, as I've tried that once before.

No, that was someone else. I've figured it out and BPD feels very different. They're similar but also very different.

Thank you!

Sorry I got you mixed up with someone else, Mandrec! It sounds like you're dealing with a great deal at once, I admire you for being able to sort out what is what. Good luck on deciding on the meds, it's so hard to balance out the pros and cons as there are so many factors involved and there's no guarantee that it will play out as one would hope. I'm not sure psychiatrists always appreciate how hard it is to deal with the side effects.