Hello Armstrong,
You said that you had great friends when you were at home, So from there to the navy and presently you became a loner? Is that correct. Sometimes I pick things up wrong even when they are in front of me. Is your manic depression under control, maybe your meds need to be tweeked. Going into the navy a spur of the moment decision but you made it out the other side and maybe it might have been all for the best, are you in therapy? You sound like a really caring person who is NOT pathetic. You are staying with 2 close friends and going to college. You are to hard on yourself. You are only young and being bipolar is hard at the best of times. Is college good for you, in time you will meet somebody. Im sure you have some great stories to tell! I wish I had some words of wisdom to help you but I know in time you will be just fine.