Speed... I am sorry that your husband is treating you so poorly. But taking the OD's is not a solution to your situation. It really doesn't matter if your husband believes you or not. You need help. You know you need help. So reach out, find any and all help you can find. For now don't even worry what he thinks, he is not what you need to even worry about. You need to fight for YOUR happiness. It's attainable.