Update: I went to the doctor, which I found on Zocdoc. She prescribed 50 mg Zoloft daily, which I have been on for a week and a day. I might be feeling better. I haven't been crying quite as much. I still am brooding and dwelling on things that make me unhappy. But it's not quite as... hysterical and hopeless.

She also did blood tests to check thyroid and other things. Normal thyroid, but insanely low levels of Vitamin D. She prescribed Ambien, so I am not having entirely sleepless nights. The week before I visited the doctor I didn't sleep for two nights solid, which makes me feel absolute despair. She did say that she wasn't a psychiatrist, so she could only treat me for 3 month intervals (I have to go back every three months to continue to get meds). Is that normal?

Restless leg is still a problem, I think it's getting worse. I notice myself twitching my toes at weird times. It's even started irritating me at work. It never did that before. Disturbing.

I still want to see a psychiatrist. Drugs are fine and good, but I feel like I want to fix my brain. I'm tired of feeling this way... I want to be able to stop myself from thinking my way into a funk.