i have noticed recently that nobody ever stays, ever, i cannot think of anybody that will stay, it is not that they have had to always go but often it is something out of will (I think) but i am not sure if it is maybe my fault and i cannot figure it out. I know sometimes people talk about me and say things, and say things too me too, about how i might be boring, but i don't know how to be anything else, something i noticed was that i am losing the ability to communicate properly.

it is not that I don't know how to structure a sentence, though, it is that sometimes i am apparently too formal or maybe i just say things that nobody is interested in or i write too much maybe? nobody really wants to be around me i know, because people only know me when they have nobody else around, and asides that they don't know me, so it isn't really me that they know, but i don't know me either, but why is everyone leaving? I never do anything to be cruel to anybody i swear, it makes me sad when people are hurt by the intentions of others, what can i do to make somebody remember me and not leave and know that maybe i am real? is something wrong in me causing this, sorry i must know?