One thing that I have been learning recently is that if a person or a situation, etc. triggers me or makes me really uncomfortable, or anything like that, then there is usually something that I can learn from the situation. I might prefer to run away and escape, or to whine and complain (I've been doing a lot of that lately), but if I do that, it will keep happening. Maybe I will manage to avoid the one person or event, but eventually something is going to be close enough that I will have the same reaction again. Have you found those same feelings and reactions recurring for you?

If you want to get to the bottom of it you will have to stay in the situation long enough to understand what is happening and how you are reacting and what you could do to change it. Now, there are some people and some situations that almost anyone would find unpleasant or intolerable, so if that is the case I would say why beat yourself up trying to figure it out. But if not everyone is reacting the same way that you are, then there is probably something in it for you to learn. Don't feel bad about not sticking with it in the past though. If it is important for you, it will keep coming back up so you will get another chance. That is one of the things that therapy groups are good for, IMO.

TC,
Rap