Thank you so much NWgirl2013 for taking the time to read my very long post. You are very right with everything that you wrote. It's like taking 2 steps forward and 1 step back. It has been hard and painful but I am working on accepting the fact that it is what it is.

I am beginning to believe that I am probably better not having someone like him in my life. I am somehow thankful that it has happened now that my son still doesn't know what is going on. I guess, I am still a little lost as to what happened to the person I married. He was once an amazing, caring, thoughtful and considerate person but after he go back from his trip he became completely the opposite... I would say, I complete Jerk and an a**hole.

Well, I have the best out of this marriage anyway, my handsome, precious and my forever Love, my SON .

Thank you again and have a great rest of your weekend.