I have PTSD and I don't hate my children but I do want them to go away and leave me alone quite often. Even if it is not intentional sometimes I feel like they want me to just hurry up and get better. Or just get over it. It is uncomfortable to them and they want to be able to fix it, or they can't deal with it at all so they just avoid it altogether. I suppose it is very hard to be an outsider not understanding what is going on. It gets very difficult when you are trying to be who your kids need you to be and you just can't. I would not want to be in their shoes. Sometimes I wish my kids could really listen to me and hear that I am healing. They know where I have been and that is very hard on them, but I want to share with them that I am healing as well. Most of all I want them to know that I love them even when I don't want them around me.