I have been seeing mine since 2004. The previous one I had was great but he retired. The one I have been seeing since 2004 is ok, but lately I feel he doesn't like me. I leave his office feeling worse. He wants me to get therapy but I work full-time and I would need a Saturday one and they are hard to find. I see him on Monday mornings since I work flex hours and it fits my schedule.

This past year has been extremely hard, was bullied at work to where I ended up in the hospital 3 days in Spring of 2012. I was moved to another division thankfully. I am in a much better place but then my daughter and I became estranged last summer and she had broken my heart and the crying spells were so bad they were uncontrollable even at work and it was a new job so I had to constantly run into the restroom to cry. The family dynamic is gone since my ex son-in-law moved in with another woman in Nov '12. I have 3 beautiful grands. One has autism and that is hard on my daughter. I worry about my family but feel I have been cut off from them. My daughter can't handle my MH issues anymore. She has had to deal with me for her whole life and back then I didn't know I had problems.

My Pdoc seems uninterested in me. I can tell. I want to find another dr but I don't know how to tell him without sounding rude. I have 2 very good friends that were so concerned about me when I recently turned off my phone they came to my door yesterday morning banging on it. They had told me they were about to call police because they thought I did something rash. I didn't, I just didn't want to get out of bed. But these 2 friends have been there for me more than family has. I have had profound loneliness since my relationship with daughter is no longer even though we are civil. Sorry to ramble.