Thanks everyone.

I had a lot of bad news this weekend so I'm all ****** right now.

Found out my Graves' Disease might be back. It's been in remission for the last 5 years and my thyroid test from Thursday was a little wonky. I see that a few others are visiting their endos....is it possible that the bipolar diagnosis I received is really my crazy thyroid? Of course, now that my mom knows I am heading back into my endo, she's thinking it's more likely my thyroid making me all "moody" and not the bipolar. I wonder too. I just don't remember being this off and on when I was first diagnosed with Graves. I remember being physically sick but not emotionally. This mood thing has been pretty recent, as in the last 5 years...really since after the birth of my first daughter. Hm.. anyway, I didn't even have anxiety until recently (in the last 5-10 years) but have had the depression for 20. I do know that the Lamictal HAS helped in terms of me being able to control my swings a little better. I still have them, but I'm able to hold back the tears or not scream when I'm frustrated with the kids. I have an appt with the pdoc this week but have to move to next week due but I'm going to tell him, of course, and keep him posted on my thyroid results. I'm just so bummed because, as stupid as it is, I do not want to take meds again and gain weight. It sucks. And wow, was that a paragraph filled with a bunch of thoughts. I feel like I'm rambling on right now.

On top of this, I found out yesterday that my dog has an ACL injury. Too much basketball in the backyard. LOL But really, he blew his knee out and now they want to do surgery to fix it. $2000 for it. I almost threw up when they told me.

Man, this is all so exhausting.