I got very drunk and stoned last night and brought a man that I just met home. I don't typically do things like this. I feel very dumb/embarrassed about it. I ran into a friend as I was stumbling back home and I keep worrying that he judges me. I've been doing a lot of impulsive, dumb things lately and am in a constant whirl wind of highs and lows. I feel uncomfortable in my own skin and just took my last Xanax. I feel too old for this ****.

Can anyone relate? Advice?