Guys, I'm on my 3rd glass of wine (which to me may or may not be a bad thing) and I feel compelled to tell you all the circumstances of the breakup.

For some, this may actually fall under 'relationships' but I truely belive that I suffer from 'BPD' and that THIS would be the best place for my confessions.

This is the deal (some may not want to post personal info on the net but for me; I'm just looking to see if I'm normal or cray')

Ready?

Mr. Wonderful (as I'll call him here) is from my home state. I met him after I wrecked my vehicle and took it into my insurance company's center of choice. When I firs met Mr. Wonderful, I had the 'feeling' of 'this is it!'. When I sat down in front of him, I wanted to be noticed (perhaps I'm a attention *****?)

What actually happened was that he asked me to dinner. We went to dinner in November and spent every waking moment with each other until July of the follow year (you must know that I have 4 kids and he has 2).

One night, as I was setting up my 17mth year old's play pen, Mr Wonderful was in the living room helping him get dressed. I heard a 'thump' and my son cry and thought perhpaps my son was upset about getting his pj's on. I continued to set up the 'pack-n-play' and I heard the same 'thud' and my son cry.

After I heard this for second time, I quickly made my way to the living room. Once I arrived, I saw my son (who is 16 mths old) laying face down on the floor. I was concerned.

I told Mr. Wonderfuln that I was concerned that he may have gotten frustratied and physically abused my youngest. He assured me that I was not thinking clearly.

The folllowing weekend, I was at Mr. Wonderful's house. I woke up the next morning to find that my youngest was bruised on his left temple and the bottom of his right skull. Mr. Wonderful asked me if that was going to add to my supicion (sp?) opf him abusing my child. I told him that it would definatelyb add to that concern and I quit seeing him.

'Mr. Wonderful' texted me yesterday. One thing that I realized was the fact that I DO love him. I'm not happy with what he did to my child but he (Mr. Wonderful) sounds like he wouldn't do anything like that again.

This is my problem; I love the physical about Mr. Wonderful, i enjoy his sense of humor but I can't decide whether or not he, Mr. Wonderful, will find himself helpless and take it out on my children. (I wouldn't be able to forgive myself if I introduced my children to someone who would hurt them.