Ive reached out to you before henrydavid because Ive been there. I live in a college town. I see this all the time.

> I've been doing a lot of impulsive, dumb things lately and am in a constant whirl wind of highs and lows.

> I would be interested in doing another stuff, but most people here aren't.

Sounds familiar. It seems to me your background is different than what the college lifestyle is opening you up to and you dont have a support system in place for what you'd like to be doing.

You can stand outside and watch the party culture and witness a lot of laughter and good times and think to yourself how that looks attractive and that you want to try it too cause obviously (it seems) they are having a lot of fun but then you try it yourself and it doesnt feel right, no matter how you want it to feel right. Youre exchanging loneliness for unhealthiness and feeling the repercussion. You should quit while youre ahead and choose a healthier lifestyle. Im saying because Ive been there.