We all do it, but why? My husband and children went to get my youngest son at the airport. A four hour trip by themselves without mom to mediate. They're all bickering over really stupid stuff. My husband is freaking out because my son took us literally when we said "just bring yourself home." (Really, honey you're worried the boy has no clothes?!? He has two closets, a dresser, and three totes full here! If you're that concerned you are right next to one of the largest outlet malls in the country, surely they sell socks and underwear there.) My daughter is stressing that he would not know to bring the correct paperwork to get a marriage license. (He brought everything, he's fine.) With the other two boys it's manifesting as grumpy anything and everything is getting under their skin. They have reverted to toddlers.
They are all stressed out over the same thing. For many reasons this will be the last time we will all be together exactly as we are. Exactly how we have been for the last 20 years. Life changes us all, but usually this happens gradually over time. But we're about to fast forward and we're all stressed. We all know what we're worried about, it isn't underwear, a birth certificate, or that you had to eat at Denny's. My phone was blowing up with texts from them all.
Why can't we just let go of the little things and savor this time right now? We have no idea what tomorrow will bring, changes that we may not like. But right now, this second, all is right in our world. Why do we ruin it by worrying about tomorrow? If this time next year the worst thing that has happened to us is that Peanut has forgotten to pack a change of underwear I call that a good year!
I am fortunate that my boss lost my day off slip for today. Right now I can cry, worry, and fret in private with the support of my PC friends. Because by noon tomorrow, I will have a smile on my face and enjoy this time I have with my family. The next person that snaps because of that which has not yet happened, and God willing, will not, shall feel my wrath, because if I can hold it together, so can you!
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I've been married for 24 years and have four wonderful children.
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