Now, now mankey man. Sounds like you're stuck in a heck of a negative thinking rut.

You don't wanna die, you just want relief. And I appreciate how much getting your feeling down in type or print can be a relief.

So if it makes ya feel better, keep it up. NOt sure I can speak for everybody, but I fully understand where you are coming from. Might just post a bit of my dark poetry.

BEst wishes and good luck. You doin ok? Been a super-d-duper poster lately.