Thank you for your reply.

My depression is caused by my personality, insecurity, and stuff that happened in my life.

I doubt I'll be able to talk about it to a therapist, but tomorrow I'm going to. I have a really hard time expressing how I feel, especially out loud. I'd be terribly nervous right now but it hasn't sunk in yet.

I just feel so damn uncomfortable; even if I weren't depressed, I would be - that's just how I am. Even about other things. Like giving my opinion on something, however trivial it may be, anything emotional, etc. just makes me uncomfortable. I don't know why I'm like this. I don't know if anyone will understand me.