Had a post in the new section but was referred here, so here goes...

I recently got married in December and we both have a shaky childhood story. We get along great but we are starting to suspect that I might be bipolar, PTSD, and social anxiety. It is getting worse day by day and sometimes I can't even get out of bed. I am tired of yelling at my wife for no reason. It makes me feel horrible but I can't stop doing it. I am afraid my marriage is going to end because of it even though there are no signs of her leaving. She even tells me otherwise. I am afraid to bring children into this situation for multiple reasons and I feel since my mother has various issues with these things as well that I shouldn't have been born, therefore why bring a child into this new situation. This hurts me because I do want to raise a family and I refuse to act like this anymore. But it is not up to me seemingly. I have awful thoughts when she is away at work because of my past relationships. She is a different person and I love her dearly and I want to treat her right, but my brain will not seemingly allow me to be "normal" enough to think straight. I really need help but only end up getting frustrated playing phone tag with the various help groups in my area because I get anxious to pick up the phone when they call back. What am I to do?