I honestly have no idea what I'm like normally. I guess my "normal" is a bit depressed, but in the golden melancholy way.

My art teacher in high school said there were two kinds of melancholy: golden and black. Golden melancholy is where you're depressed, but just enough that it makes you want to DO something and express it in some way, like art. Black melancholy is where you can't be productive and end up expressing it in destructive, often self-destructive, ways.