Hi FrustratedInSoCal!
Have you been to a T/pdoc? It would be helpful to have a T who will help you with a goal focused plan of care.
Would going to a therapist be something that would help your spouse believe in the marriage being able to continue?
I hate the phone tag thing, too. Keep trying. If you feel unsafe here are some links.
https://www.imalive.org/
National Suicide Prevention Lifeline – Suicide Prevention Crisis Hotline
tc
Keep trying the numbers you were dialing. There's a chat room here at PC. need 5 posts to enter. sometimes it takes awhile to get 5 posts approved. Also, one of the links above has a chatline, I think. Keep returning to your thread here and see what members may have replied.
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