I'm sorry your friends left you, ... I feel betrayed by someone who took her life and left me without a grandma, left my poor dad to identify her remains... I feel sad for her but angry too and I never even got to meet her, maybe I am her, maybe that's why I know I can't do that in this life, maybe that's why I don't like trains & rollercoasters. Idk, this probably doesn't help you feel better - nothing can really help, cuz you can't change what you've just beeen through, and then the friends before him. I don't know what I'm saying...