First of all, you should tell your doctor about the Lamictal rash right this second. It can be a very dangerous reaction. He will take you right off of it. This rash can be a very serious condition. Get on the phone immediately!!!!!!!!!! Second of all, relaxation when you are under a lot of stress is surely important. Different people find different things calming. Some ideas are: Meditation, a warm bath, aromatherapy, a walk, exercise, soft music, deep breathing. It would be great if you could talk to a therapist too. Mine always says the past is history; don't waste energy there. You drank and missed work. Move on. Don't beat yourself up. Guilt is a useless emotion. It serves no good purpose. Feel better soon.