I am feeling depressed; messed up; shattered; alone; dread in the pit of my stomach; a terrible sense of foreboding; worthless; pointless and useless. My back and leg are in intense pain. That is how I really feel today, it's just after midday here now, one day rolls into the next. Not getting out of bed today, do not have the energy. Urges are extremely high…terrified that I may have to go back to the Psych Unit.

Partner at work, I am so dependent on him it is scary. Our relationship is so unhealthy and dysfunctional. Pity, because there was a time when it was good. That was many moons ago.

Well, that is how I am really feeling so far today.