Thanks (((((( hugs ))))))

I've been dxd as "avoidant" by more than one therapist, as well as with depression, complex ptsd (from trauma and abuse), severe general anxiety.... I think I'll need a lifetime of meds and therapy
But truly I hope my life is short. and I feel bad saying that

I'm a Christian now and I feel like I'm sinning every time I post, even if,,..

My trust issues which Ive had all my life.. sometimes worse ... sometimes a little less... make me want to hide

Why is life so hard?