Southpole and Rainbow, this is so what I am hoping for by telling my pdoc of my crush for him! Part of my problem is that I have severe social anxiety and insecurity with men- all men. I feel most able to connect only when sex is involved. I've basically never had a close platonic relationship with a straight man. I was insecure and shy with my dad and brothers all through childhood, and distant with my husband (but that's a long story). So this could be an enormous learning experience for me that he can only help me with if he is aware of how I feel. My intense fear of rejection is what's held me back all this time. But, I trust my female T's opinion that I should tell him, as she's assured me he will handle it well. This leads me to believe I'm not the first of his patients with this issue, which is somewhat comforting. It is so weird though, such a difficult conversation to have!