I'm currently in a long distance relationship of 3 months. I met my boyfriend in high school and literally 8 years after we graduated, we randomly reconnected and there was a spark. We all know that long distance relationships come with their own unique set of challenges on top of normal relationship challenges. But I'm struggling with one in particular.

I think I'm smothering my boyfriend with selfish tactics to gain reassurance of the status of our relationship/his feelings for me. He just came up to visit me for the weekend. He was in a tough financial spot so I paid for everything. We had a great weekend until the second half of his last day here. Things started to shift. I knew I was compliment fishing more and coming on strongly with the hopes of getting compliments/flattery/affection in return. I'm sure he picked up on that and needed some space.

I can go from cocky to insecure in 0-5 seconds. On one hand I think I've got it all figured out. I'm responsible, I know what I want and I strive to get it. On the other hand, I, like everyone else in the world, have been hurt many times. I have a history of throwing myself at guys with the hopes they will eventually like me. This relationship started out with a mutual liking, which was great but now I think I'm throwing myself into a growing relationship that just needs time, maturation and communication to grow.

I'm insecure to the point that I need to hear how he feels about me and often. I feel I need some sort of inkling of reassurance regarding our future together. Not put a ring on it future, but just being together. I seriously want to ask him "so, we spent a weekend together alone and it had its ups and downs. Think we can still make this work?" Is that crazy?

I know the first step is self-acceptance. The problem starts with me. How do I communicate these things to my boyfriend?

I'm hoping I didn't ruin things already. :-/