Fuzzy, You are always dancing for somebody else, its time we danced for you. (not literally! I can't dance.) You are not ranting, it looks like the rug is pulled out from under you. Things that happen in your childhood mould the way are as adults, and even at an early age we make assumptions, even thought they may not be correct. I totally get that. when my mom was sad I thought it was me that made her cry. I know different now. I'm so sorry you are feeling low. One day you are fine, the next day Wham ! you get the stuffing knocked out of you. Sometimes you have to have a leap of faith Fuzzy, because you said yourself you may need more meds. Best wishes to you Fuzzy. We love the hoola bear!