I might call her if I need to but I don't know. I feel really weird about talking on the phone, I don't know why but it's really hard for me to call people even if I know them.

I'm sorry you've got people looking in on you like that too. It sucks so much. I hate it too because I try telling people about what's going on and I haven't met very many people that believe me. My pdoc believes me but outside of her I don't know if anyone else does. It's so frustrating and terrifying because what if something happens to me? Then it'll be too late for anyone to help me because nobody believed me when it could have made a difference.