I'm very sorry to hear about the death of your brother. I can tell from your post, that this was something that affected you greatly, just like the death of my husband affected me.

You've been a big help, though Pierro. Thank you. See, I never knew that a death would have such a big impact one me, I mean to the point where I would lose my sanity. I have heard that people take deaths differently, but I felt like people were treating me like I should have known better. I felt so embarrassed after I finally came to my senses, but I still question why I ever was like that to begin with.

Your post was a huge help because what you describe you went through after your brother died, is somewhat the same thing I was experiencing. I just kept feeling like my husband was going to come back. This went on for a long time.

I agree that it's a personal thing, which is why I had such a hard time when everyone, people I didn't even know, knew what I was dealing with.

I also agree that I am driving myself crazy. I really am. I'm trying to get back to me, but I don't know, maybe God has other plans.

Thanks for the well wishes. I wish you the best also.