I had a relapse with purging over the weekend. I felt like total crap last night and immediately started going to a place of blaming myself again. But then, first time ever, I caught myself and I just kind of told myself, It won't change anything. It's already in the past; all I can do without making it ten times worse is just accept that it happened and move on.

I agree about the shame. Shaming ourselves keeps us stuck. And I want to believe I can recover from this damned disease, no matter how insurmountable it may seem.

I also agree that if your T isn't listening to - and taking seriously - your complaints about the meds, it may be time to start looking for a different T.

If you ever need someone to talk to, if you relapse again or just need to vent or need some encouragement or someone to share with, feel free to PM me.