Does anyone ever wish that they'd either get well or just go completely mad? I'm so tired of being caught in the middle... functioning reasonably well on the outside, but filled with depression, anxiety & odd compulsions on the inside. Every day is the same old battle. It's been this way my entire life & the older I get, the harder it gets. I just wish I could get well (of course I know this will never happen... my condition is chronic) or just go completely insane to the point where I neither know nor care what I'm thinking or doing! Sometimes the idea of "senior demenetia" starts to sound pretty good...