I wouldn't even know what change to make, the changes I would need to make to solve the problem aren't things I have control over really. I've been hurt more by people than helped by them so I'm likely not going to just put myself out there to meet more people...income might help, so I am trying to get on SSI though i might start looking for work in case that doesn't work not that i think I'd get hired or be there long before getting fired but if I can't get on SSI i don't have much choice other than hoping i can earn enough to get by somewhat and not end up in the psych ward if the stress gets to be too much.

Nothing is ever simple and I just wish logic could over-rule emotions in these instances. It actually feels more like i am slipping than moving in any positive forward direction. If there were viable solutions then perhaps I would be but i can't think of any.