For me sometimes like when I'm grocery shopping I think everybody knows I'm bp. Sometimes I think my family wants me institutionalized. One of my sister's in particular. My other sister's tell me it's not true but she's the one that is the first to say you need to go to the hospital...She has no clue what its like in this particular clinic I'll call it.

The actual hospital isn't that bad but they only put you in there if your suicidal or homicidal. The other place is like a warehouse she would never send her kids there but me she's fine with. It's like let's lock her up and heavily medicate her so she's quiet and conforms. My other sister's say she doesn't want that for me but she's always saying maybe you need to be on more meds. Yeah so I can be like you a cold, lack of compassion mass of ice.

Sorry rant...