Your welcome Shelly, My brother died 8 months ago and I sometimes think I see him walking down the street. I flipped out one day I seen a man walking down the street I ran up to him he turned and I started to cry, luckily a friend was with me. The poor man did not know what he did. It's very hard to deal with Shelly and you need to give yourself a break. You are too hard on yourself. Over time you will be able to learn to live with it. You learn to cope with it better, right.