I want to end it, I just don't have the gusts. I' am trying so hard to get the guts, but he's sooo smart. When he sees me getting strong, he changes his behavior and is nice, so, I feel guilty about wanting to leave him, and the cycle starts again, and again, and again.
On top of that, people would never suspect I'm such an idiot when it comes to my home situation. I am well spoken, successful at what I do, most people that know me think of me as a high profiler, so I shouldn't be in the situation I'm in.
I am so gutt-less is horrible, I am mad at myself for that.

gab