Dear T,

I was hoping I could get through this week without feeling this way - like I miss you. I'm incredibly embarrassed by this part of me...you know, I'm really not a needy person. When I'm in your office, it feels like you see right through me and it almost literally makes me squirm. I'm afraid of closeness and yet, there I am in therapy trying to be open with you about deeply personal issues. It's very confusing. And then the neediness comes. I hate being lonely so I try to let you in, but then I feel too needy. Isn't there an in between? Balance would be welcome, T...I know you said changing would be work. I get that. I am a very studious person so should be no problem there, right?....Um, but how does that happen exactly? If you just gave me the play-by-play, I would follow the rules to a tee...but I get the feeling it doesn't work that way. Soooooooo frustrated. And I miss you