At some point it occured to me I might be a lesbian. I am now 22, never even been kissed and I'm very reluctant in trying anything with anyone. Deep down I feel I know the truth, that I am indeed gay, but somehow I convince myself that I'm straight until proven otherwise. My sister says that I'm trying to force this on myself, just because I found out that some famous people I admire are gay or lesbian. I don't know. It seems irrational to do something like that, I don't know. But I do get very influenced by the films I watch or books I read, so... I dont' know, I'm probably just in denial. I just want to fall in love so that I know at last. But then again, I don't think I can handle it considering all the problems in my head. I don't know. Whatever.