I was reading here somewhere that when something really bugs us badly that it could be an unresolved issue coming back and needing resolution. Okay, that may indeed be the issue. Last week a woman from a state agency having to do with the child we are adopting was downright cruel and abusive to my day care provider. I flipped a big one and it has upset me so much that I have cried and obsessed over it. Is it as simple as innocent people being hurt and my need to protect the innocent? Is it my indignant attitude toward professionals or people in power who abuse this power? I have been absolutely obsessed and it's been hard to let it go. Time to meditate on it I guess.

However, there is more. A grudge that this abusive woman is holding against me because we adopted one child from a sibling pair. We had good reasons, mainly that the older child was abusing the younger ones. But a grudge that old! Give me a break!!!!