I definitely know the feeling of being abandoned I hope things get better for you. One thing I find that sometimes helps is trying to have "lots" of friends, even if it is only in cyber-space, rather than relying a lot on one or two "special" friends who might end up abandoning you, or it might just feel that way .... but then "lots" could be only 5 or 6. Sorry, this is probably no help, which is why I usually stick to "hugs"

Take care,
Fuzzy