Hi there,

I am a lesbian currently in a relationship that really confuses me. This is my first lesbian relationship, so I'm kinda worried that maybe I want to date other people or something-but at the same time, I really don't want to because I really like this person. The relationship is healthy, except I keep coming up with these reasons in my mind of why we are not compatible. I guess I should note that I have depression, and so maybe I'm just withdrawing.

The compatibility thoughts are things like her being too highstrung when shes cooking, and I'm so free spirited and don't really wanna do things by the book all the time, which is the way she is. She is also very concrete, literal, and I'm over here talking in metaphors and I think abstractly. I thought it could balance us but I donno. I'm not good at making changes, and I really struggle with differences, which I'm aware of-so I also don't want to break it off because everyone I will ever date is going to be different then me.

We are both butches too, I'm extremely attracted to butches, and love to be rough and wrestle, would love paintball too-but shes got a knee injury preventing all that, and is gentle in nature. Blah I just don't know if that's reason for breaking up.

Its so lame, this morning I started off the day crying about maybe needing to break up, then went online and bought her something o0; holy crap I donno whats going on.

Anybody out there been in a relationship for at least 4 years and have experience working through these weird times, grass is greener type of thing?
Actually any help would be awesome lol

Take care,
-obj