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You aren't alone. The worst thing for me is when I realize that it is mania again. Honestly the mania "happiness" feels better and more real sometimes that actual happiness. I write too to let it out. I'm sorry you are having such a hard time finding medications that work. I'm still not there yet and it has been 13 years for me, but hopefully you can find something to relieve the worst of it.
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"Sometimes the hardest thing and the right thing are the same"
Best HP Quote Ever: Book 7: "Of course it is happening inside your head, Harry, but why on earth should that mean that it is not real?"- Dumbledore.
DX: Bipolar 1, Anixety/Panic Disorders, Borderline Personality Disorder, and quite a few health problems.
RX: Lithium 900mg, Paxil 20mg, Xanax XR 1mg, Trileptal 300mg
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