I know we love to judge in here but mix nine years of untreated depression with an underlying problem... My ADD wasn't much of a problem before I became depressed because I could compensate in different ways. When depression became too bad, I lost the means of compensating. I used to do things in a hurry, but suddenly I was way too drained to use that approach and since it was the only one I knew I didn't know how to handle things.

But maybe I just wanted things handed to me what do I know???