Uhh yeah, what exactly is there to enjoy...I don't think isolation is even healthy, and its something I struggle with quite a lot. I do my best to enjoy being alone no matter how depressing it is...I try to not be bothered by having essentially no friends or real support from people but I don't think I can enjoy all that.

If I spend more time doing things alone that would mean cutting myself off from all interaction since most things I do are alone anyways...I wish I could just live life and all that without needing any help or support from anyone else but I am not sure that is possible for me or even humans in general. But what do I know maybe total isolation would be the best bet just not sure how to get entirely stuck in my head to the point I am not aware of the world outside...but if I could it might be less painful.

Also though all that aside I don't have the means to go do things even alone, aside from walking around outside any other activity even volunteering as I'd still have to afford the bus costs more money than I have....I have been waiting on an SSI decision, and if that doesn't work out I don't really have a lot of options. I guess I might as well try and find work if that proves to be the case but not sure that would work out considering the reasons I am applying for SSI.