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ultramar · Apr 09, 2013, 08:06 PM

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Originally Posted by comicgeek007

I do live in the US. I'm going to a pdoc in Mississippi where I go to college but the other doctor was in Maryland where I live and went for spring break.

I think it's at least part of the picture. I have a lot of days where I'm really really depressed, a lot of days where I'm hyper - psychotically happy or raging angry and can't just sit down and shut up, and a few days where I'm neither and can actually get a lot of things done (hyperness usually gets so bad I can't settle down to do ANYthing).

I have a mood journal, but he didn't want to hear about my moods. He was just certain I'm super depressed. I don't think I'm going to have another apt with him because of a few reasons, not just how I feel about him. Money is a big part of it, too, and next semester I will qualify for free (or at least a heck of a lot cheaper than $50 for a ten minute session!) pdoc and T apts elsewhere.

Even if Abilify does end up working, it's just the principle that he didn't seem to want to hear about anything that contradicted his preconceived notions about me - even if they came form another doctor who saw me for a lot more time and saw just how horrible my mood swings can get (I almost threw a table at her once and she's also seen the super happy hyper and the really depressed, too).

It sounds like she's not listening to you. Or on the other hand, simply disagrees with you even having listened to you. I've posted this a couple of times, but my current psychiatrist wouldn't diagnose me bipolar (even though I had been previously) until he himself witnessed a manic episode. I think it can be a very difficult diagnosis to make and some doctors want to make that determination on their own. I still don't understand the 'American' thing -you live here, the other doctor was just in another state, not a different country.

Maybe she thinks the more hyper moods aren't lasting long enough, maybe she thinks the whole picture put together suggests depression, including the agitation.

The only solution I can see is either seeing someone else, or, if you think it's worth it, continue to try to communicate with her. Since you threw a table at her once, as you say, maybe the relationship isn't going to work out and you need to start anew elsewhere. But you might ask her why she thinks the hyperness and agitation are part of depression, not hypomania. Clearly she thinks this is the case, I think it would be important to know why, how she sees the whole picture. But if she won't communicate, then I guess you'll have to move on.

Good luck and I hope the Abilify helps!