That was just my point UD, i can hold onto it for a while but then it becomes draining and pointless. I also i don't want to care deeply for someone and then spend the rest of my life hating them. I want to forgive, it's my nature to forgive. So no i don't want to hold onto hostile feelings for this person at all, i want to forgive, i want to accept that we all make mistakes, it's human nature to make mistakes.

Nice to hear from you UD. I'd love to read some of your poetry again when you have some finiished.