Well, I do meet with my guidance counseler but she is probably THE WORST guidance counseler ever. I hate talking to her because all she does is just say the my situation sucks and there's nothing I can do about it):

In school, they gave us a card with suicide preventian numbers and I have really wanted to use them. The problem is my parents would find out I used them and not be very happy about it. They would think I'm being over dramatic and call me crazy. They would find out beacuse I ahve cellphone but my dad psychoanalyzes it every second so I've stopped texting and calling people. I also have a home phone but someone would probably end up listening in (I have three younger siblings and of cousrse, my parents). So that's when I decided to join this website!

My parents are also saying the same thing about college. That either I have to get married or just live with them. And I do have really good grades (like a 4.2GPA) but the problem is it's hard to get involved with my kind of parents. Last year I did some community service, and this year I only did track. I hate it though because the coaches aren't easy to talk to at all and my parents always complain about picking me up.