Dear T,
I appreciate you so much and I feel so incredibly lucky to have you as my T. You make me feel so comfortable, so heard, and so valued. I always leave a session feeling light, energetic, confident, and at peace. I feel like you truly understand and care about me. I'm going through a hard time right now (planning on ending my relationship with my gf), and talking to you gives me clarity and makes me feel supported. It feels good when you tell me that I have everything to offer, and that I should hold out for the person who has everything to offer me in return; I don't need to settle or to try to make this relationship work when there is something better out there for me.
It also meant a lot to me the other day when you told me that if I'm no longer seeing you by the time I have my first child, that I *have* to visit you so that you can meet him or her. It shows me how invested you are in me and in my having the relationship and family that I desire. I know I'll never have a mom, but what you give me really does feel like a little piece of that. I can't help but wonder if you'd accept an invitation to things like my wedding or my PhD defense. When I think about those big life events, I think of my dad, and my sister, and my best friends... and you. You've told me before that you're "one of my people"; you're one of the people in my life who's in my corner no matter what. I really feel that from you. When I was telling you the other day what my gf said about what she thinks about therapy-- and about you-- after attending a session, I couldn't help but notice the expression on your face. You looked genuinely hurt, and it hurt my feelings to think that something I said hurt you, even if I was merely relaying what my gf said. After seeing your expression, I reiterated that those were her words, not mine, and I told you exactly what I said to my gf in response. I told you how I stood up for myself, for you, and for the T relationship that we have. I also made a bit of a silly face and told you that I have your back. I was joking around in that moment, but I really meant it. I know you don't need me to have your back, but I have it anyway. You have mine, so it's only fair, right? It felt good to be able to tell you that you're important to me, and to hear you say right back that I'm important to you, too. I really value being in therapy with you, and I feel really grateful for everything that you give me. I love you.
ScorpioSis
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