I dont know whether I'm just completely over reacting here due to my own over sensitivity to these issues.

I dont want to speak out of line and upset anyone. I feel it is safe to post here however and I'd really appreciate some different perspectives than my own.

Okay, I love my Grandad. I live with him 4 days a week and he takes good care of me. We never used to be that close, I used to feel a bit uncomfortable around him and was always closer to my Nan. As my Nan got iller we got closer and closer through caring for her. When she passed away, I felt so sorry for him. I still spend a lot of time with him as he's so lonely.

The thing is, he's just getting creepier and creepier the closer we get. He's always made comments that I havent really liked. He's forever trying to smack my bum and just generally feel it if we hug. I tend to avoid being close with him anyone but if we do hug I always make it so his arms go on top because it annoys me when he touches me. I have bad eczema on my legs at the minute and wearing clothes is really painful. If I'm ever in shorts around him though he makes comments about my legs and looks at them a lot. I find it really creepy and it makes me uncomfortable. I do know how sensitive I am with these issues though and I'm sure he means nothing by it.

When my Nan was alive I tihnk she used to keep him in line a bit more. Maybe I'm wrong, maybe he just 'vented' on her a bit more. It makes me a bit sick to think. My Nan had dementia and he was her primary carer up until the last 9 months. She was incontinent and frequently contracted thrush due to diabetes and poor hygiene (it was a world war to get her in the bath). I knew my Grandad cared for her, I just never though anything of it. Then today he said he told her he fold it very tempting when he had to put her cream on, he said he was a frustrated old man. I felt so uncomfortable and awkward, why was he telling me that?

He was so good to my Nan for so many years. She was a strict woman and always put him in his place. As her midn went though, I worry that he may have taken advantage a bit. I hate to think it I really do. I remember catching him feeling up her breast once, she was just sitting there as though nothing was happening. I didnt know if it was wrong or not. She was his wife and they'd obviously had intimacy when they were younger.

When my Nan was in the care home she got very violent when ever they tried to wash her, she'd scream dont you ****ing touch me down there! Things like that.

I'm sure I'm just adding 2 and 2 and getting 5, it just worries me. Like I said, I love my Grandad and I'm not trying to paint a bad picture. I just wish he didnt do and say things like he does. It embarasses me. Especially when he talks about other young girls like it. I dont think he knows what hes doing.

I just feel like I'm stuck between a rock and a hard place again, I cant stand living at home with the pressures of looking after my little sister and avoiding my crazy mother. At my Grandadfs I havre much more freedom and independence but then I have to put up with beign made to feel uncomfortable again.

Should I just put up with it? Are all Grandads like this to their grandaughters?

I keep thinking, if it was anyone else but my Grandad I'd be so pissed off by it.