I agree there are a lot of factors to finding success. I agree with Costello, I get stressed by things that normal people find not-stressful. And once I get stressed I can spiral out of functioning really fast. If I had a supportive and nurturing environment I would feel safer when this happens.

In the world of jobs and business that doesn't happen. The majority of companies only care about the bottom line. If you can't function at the level they require, they will find a way to get rid of you. I feel I've had that pressure on me for the past 4 years here, although it's been better recently. I am supposed to stay at a stable level of functioning and I just can't, and I know it will come about that something bad will happen and then that's it.

But, at the same time, I struggle with finding something else. I feel paralyzed.